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Hopeless Romantic: A person who daydreams about romantic occasions and dreams of chances where he will be able to perform a romantic act to his love, yet never gets the chance to. This person is in love with love. He believes in fairytales and love. He makes love look like an art form with all the romantic things he does for his special someone. Hopeless romantics are NOT hopeless, per say, but very true, caring and loving people. They believe in passion, chivalry and true love, and have loved sincerely at one point in their life, and can't understand why it has not returned.

Reading the multitude of definitions for this, I could only see a reflection of me. Almost like looking into a mirror. Most likely why I've been labeled this by quite a few people lately. Well, today I was watching an episode of How I Met Your Mother and the end scene definitely caught my ear, and the hopeless romantic in me. The conversation between two characters was this:

Ted:

"What you and Tony have, what I thought for a second you and I had. What I know Marshall and Lilly have. I want that. I do. I keep waiting for it to happen. And I guess I'm just... umm. Tired of waiting."

Stella:

"I know that you're tired of waiting. And you may have to wait a little while more.

But she's on her way Ted. And she's getting here as fast as she can."

I honestly watched this scene a second time, just to let it kick in. It reflected a lot of what has been on my heart for almost the past six months. Movie scenes, TV scenes, songs, there was so much that made this longing romantic heart long even more. I guess Taylor Swift songs wouldn't be the most influential to a hopeless romantic, huh? Why am I so caught up with love? I'm nineteen, well, closer to twenty, and I'm already tired of waiting. I'm so, almost consumed, by the notion of love, that it's become a desire.

• I've envied a friend's taking of engagement photos.
• I covet other friends in relationships.
• I yearn to hold someone close. To feel their heartbeat.
• I'm so seemingly caught up in love.

So caught up, that I seem to forget the one true Love of my soul. I get so caught up that I forget that the one true Love has plans for me. That the one true Love calls me to patience and trust.

"Abide in my love" (John 15:9)

To wait for. To endure without yielding. To bear patiently. Abiding not in the love that the hopeless romantic desires, but His unfailing love.

An Ephesians 2:4-5 love. "But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in our transgressions."

A Psalms 36:5 and 52:8 love. "Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens" / "But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever"

This is the LOVE I need to be more caught up with. To long for His love exponentially more than my hopeless romantic love. For when I long for intimacy and closeness with Him, my heart is satisfied. I must abide in His love. With all of my heart, and all of my soul, I want to love You more and more.

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written: 'For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.' No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God" (Romans 8:35-29)

How can love like this not be my main obsession? My desire? My longing? My yearning? My hope?

How I wish that I could say that it's my heart's main desire at the moment. Honestly, it's not. But that doesn't mean I don't, with everything in me, want it to be. Because, with everything in me, I honestly do. My heart's focus needs to be on Him, and Him alone. For everything else He desires will come with it. I do not abandon my hopeless romantic side, I do one day hope for love, and a love that can reflect Christ's love for me. But rather than an obsession, God's love is my desire, with patience that my hopeless romantic's love will come along with.

"I missed you

But I haven't met you

Oh but I want to

How I do"

With love,

Danual.

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Psalm 37:4

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