Captains of the Sky

Excusez Mwah!?...
Here I am. Home. Writing once again.
Thank you for returning.

Hume 2010 was of nothing its ever been before.
Spiritually enhancing. Emotionally straining.

The Lord gave me a whole new Hume experience. Solitariness:
Something I'm quite used to at home, but not at Hume. Hume, where I spend every second of time with people and am constantly active. Twenty ten was something otherwise, this year was more me feeling as if I were just a bother, extra-luggage to those around me. So I spent most of my time walking around. playing my guitar. thinking. sitting... I'll admit, it was disheartening. Every ounce of me wanted to be surrounded by friends spending time doing anything. However, it wasn't so. It was me and my shadow.

Internally raged a full-fledged battle. Vehement about being alone. Yet, grasping that absolutely nothing is about me. I was grieved, I wanted to have an enjoyable week. Yet every morning, and every night, God was telling me it wasn't about me. During the day, God was showing me it wasn't about me.

"Danual,
Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation? Tell me, if you understand. Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb? When I said, 'this far you may come and no farther, here is where you proud waves halt.' Have you ever given orders to the morning or shown the dawn its place, that it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it? Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth? Tell me, if you know all this. Did I create Hume, so that you may go there for your purposes, your merry escapades. Or for my glory alone? Do you not understand? Everything under Heaven belongs to me." (Isaiah 38-41 personally)

I can have no response to any of this. I am nothing. I'm in no control. It's not about me. Hume was not a place for me think of me, and how I could have benefitted. He showed me this. Rather than revelling in my distress, I should have drawn near to Him. For "the kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field." Everything He is, is more valuable than everything I am and anything in this world.

I need to stop highly valuing my life, but instead start highly valuing His glory. For He is good when there's nothing good in me. He is light when the darkness closes in. He is hope, He has covered all my sin. There is nothing I can ever do. Therefore I fall into His arms. The arms of everlasting love. The arms of hope. peace. faithfulness. And amidst falling into His arms, I am thankful that God is working and acting according to His plan and purpose, and not mine. For I cannot rebuke the waves, yet He can. I cannot comprehend the expanse of the earth, yet He can. Therefore, everything I do, is for His glory. My thoughts are His. No longer do I want anything to be about me. Paul tells us in Philippians 2:15 to "shine like stars in this universe", therefore for His glory I will shine. I will decrease, He will increase.

Excusing myself. Exalting Christ in what I do. What I say. What I think. I do have so much more to write. But in all that I say, may Christ be acclaimed. Take into heart that all of His creation and works have an ultimate plan and purpose to reveal to everyone who He is. You are that creation. Reveal who He is.

With heart of love.
Danual.


Admire His glory. His majesty. His awesome creation.

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