Goodbye Brielle.

Here am I.
And I've found some spare time to write.
I have so much on my mind, its amazing!
Yet, I'll have to write it post by post. And hopefully not wait too long, or I may have more nonsense build up in this mind of mine.

Quite lately I have been thinking about music. God has truly blessed me with my ability to play the three guitars (bass, electric, acoustic). When my mind overflows with nostalgia. fear. joy. love. adoration. I retreat. I retreat to my sanctuary. My guitar. When the swift motion of my hand strums a Cadd9 chord into a G, nothing else matters. I feel free, I feel complete. I am so thankful that God works for the good of those who love him. I'm thankful he has instilled in me this love for my guitars, and the love to use them to worship Him.

However, as selfish and prideful as I am. I've wondered why the Lord didn't accompany the musical talent, with the vocal talent. I lack the vocal skills. period. Its not as if I have a terrible voice (well who knows, I may just be telling myself that). But I can't sing high notes. So trusting in Him, I've come to the realization that God didn't bless me with a vocal talent because He knew I would probably use it for a "me me me" talent instead of a "Him Him Him" talent. I would try to make myself appear as a rockstar rather than one who sang for Him alone. So I've come to accept that. I thank the Lord so much for giving me the ability to accompany others with my guitar-playing.

Well I think the Lord wanted me to come to this realization, this knowledge that my voice should proclaim Him only. And just as I sit back, and accept that my fingers will solely make the melody, the Lord seemed to open a door. A door that said "I'll give you this, as long as you use it for Me." So He brought forth Emily Pahler, wife to Ryan, my baptismal buddy, and Junior High director at the church. Emily teaches voice lessons at a music school, and just yesterday, God said "Here, I'm going to open this door so you can learn to sing high" Happy Day was playing, and I didn't even attempt to hit the high note of "He's alive!", instead I mumbled "I can't hit that", and she says "I could get you to hit that." And there we go.

May God be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine upon us, that Your ways may be known on earth, Your salvation among all nations.
Psalm 67:1-2

Whether or not God will use this, is all up to Him. I sit back, content with my ability to play guitar, but ecstatic if the Lord opens doors to voice lessons. There is probably nothing more that I want then to be able to lead worship. God is gracious, and He will bless me, but in due time. I anxiously wait, and continue to pray.

My one advice to you. Wait on the Lord. Strength will rise as you wait upon the Lord. He has such great plans for you, know that You are already blessed, and will continue to be blessed. Dwell in Him, in his word, continually pray, continually worship. Love Him, trust Him, be patient with Him, for you know how patient He's been with you. Isiah 40:31 says but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Hope in Him. He will bless you immensely. I continually listen to worship music, one to encourage myself, and two, that I may be able to lead others in them. I've come across a song that I love, and I love the chorus. It's an amazing encouragement to think, and pray to Him.

I'm living for your glory
I'm living for the name above all names
No one else is worthy
No one else can ever take your place

I pray that you live for Him. Living to proclaim Him and worship Him. Live for His glory!

Signing out with love,
Danual Lee



for those who want to listen to the song (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zUZvSwIRpCc&feature=related)

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